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January 11, 2010, 10:16 PM

I got my results. And they were less than spectacular.

EL 1

Combined Humanities 2

Math 2

A Math 2

Chemistry 2

Biology 3

Chinese 5

I hate myself for not doing better in Math, Chem and Bio. I mean, c'mon. its freaking Emath. And i was so confident that I would get an A1 for chem. sucks to be me then. And bio! :( i always thought i would do better. well. i can't do anything now. :(

I hate it when some people come and "congratulate" me on fb. it's only 5 distinctions. i was aiming for 6. and not all A2s either. like wtf?

SY: Grats for the good results of O lvl!

Me: not funny. it wasnt good.

SY: :O

KZ: Wa you got so many distinction still not good, since when you so greedy one

Me: screw you. they were A2s not A1s

KZ: So what... Tbh i dont think you had such good results in school imo, so very good what, be happy

Me: thanks a bunch

SY: ya la! should be happy what for those who have no As must be sad

Like wtfffffff!! hello. i know i played and slacked in school. i know that i didn't do well in normal class tests cuz i barely studied. i know that i didnt start working hard till after prelims. but when i saw my prelim results, it was the biggest wake up call ever. i slogged my ass off. I gave up so much. and i know i am capable of doing better. you dont need to rub it in. and i dont need your "consoling". And I don't believe in comparing with others. Its about proving it to myself. So what if you think i am "greedy"? whatever. i don't need your opinion. Just fuck off. I don't want to talk to you. I don't ever want to see your face. I don't give a shit about what you think of me. My life, my results, is absolutely none of your business

Sorry. I couldn't keep that in. And I don't care if this pisses you off if you see it.

Enough of that negative energy. Poly life is soon to begin. Though it means studying and not going out so often, I can't wait. <3