live the dream

January 13, 2010, 11:43 PM

Fuck. i hate this. i hate this lack of anything. i'm stuck in limbo. just waiting and waiting for something to happen. fuck.

i should have found a job right after the tangs stint. the irony of it. when working, i wanted time to myself. now that i have all the time to myself, i want to work. wtf.

i can't stand this. fuck

and the guillotine blade comes flashing down

January 11, 2010, 10:16 PM

I got my results. And they were less than spectacular.

EL 1

Combined Humanities 2

Math 2

A Math 2

Chemistry 2

Biology 3

Chinese 5

I hate myself for not doing better in Math, Chem and Bio. I mean, c'mon. its freaking Emath. And i was so confident that I would get an A1 for chem. sucks to be me then. And bio! :( i always thought i would do better. well. i can't do anything now. :(

I hate it when some people come and "congratulate" me on fb. it's only 5 distinctions. i was aiming for 6. and not all A2s either. like wtf?

SY: Grats for the good results of O lvl!

Me: not funny. it wasnt good.

SY: :O

KZ: Wa you got so many distinction still not good, since when you so greedy one

Me: screw you. they were A2s not A1s

KZ: So what... Tbh i dont think you had such good results in school imo, so very good what, be happy

Me: thanks a bunch

SY: ya la! should be happy what for those who have no As must be sad

Like wtfffffff!! hello. i know i played and slacked in school. i know that i didn't do well in normal class tests cuz i barely studied. i know that i didnt start working hard till after prelims. but when i saw my prelim results, it was the biggest wake up call ever. i slogged my ass off. I gave up so much. and i know i am capable of doing better. you dont need to rub it in. and i dont need your "consoling". And I don't believe in comparing with others. Its about proving it to myself. So what if you think i am "greedy"? whatever. i don't need your opinion. Just fuck off. I don't want to talk to you. I don't ever want to see your face. I don't give a shit about what you think of me. My life, my results, is absolutely none of your business

Sorry. I couldn't keep that in. And I don't care if this pisses you off if you see it.

Enough of that negative energy. Poly life is soon to begin. Though it means studying and not going out so often, I can't wait. <3

January 3, 2010, 10:55 PM

well, my title pretty summed up my day :)

met Joey and Shaun at St Anne's, attended mass together, ate subway at Compass Point. i think my appetite is becoming smaller :( used to be able to finish a sub meal. cant even finish the sub now :(

walked around Compass Point a little, bought a book at popular, parted with joey; she was tired and wanted to rest at home

dragged Shaun to the library :p walked to sengkang cc to get frappes from mac. chatted until we finished our drinks, and decided to walk to the park nearby. Not long after we sat at a shelter, it started raining -.-so we ended up chatting until evening while waiting for the rain to stop.

decided to have dinner together as well, so Shaun brought me to Jalan Kayu to try the food there :) the food was pretty good, but v filling as well. note to self: order lesser next time :/

took the lrt back to sengkang station and parted there

all in all, it was quite an enjoyable day today :)

starting 2010 with a bang

January 1, 2010, 7:36 PM

Back from Jo's place :)

well, I'll keep it short and sweet

Celebrated the start of 2010 with Joey, Anjo, Shaun, Daniel and Theron. :)

Dinner and countdown at my place; waayy too much food left over. <3>

Took the last mrt to AMK and cabbed to Jo's place from there, while Theron went home.

Showered, played cards, I LEARNED TO PLAY TAITI LOL! had supper, or rather, a v early breakfast at Hougang mac.

Headed back to Jo's place, chatted, had a great time.

Played taiti again when we woke. Shaun left early to meet his parents.

Had a late lunch at pastamania :)

took the mrt back with Anjo and Daniel.

Guess what my maid cooked for dinner? Pizza. And I ate pizza for lunch at Pastamania. -.- I'm gonna be fat :(