i made up a new quote lols: "The only thing worse than having a limited vocabulary is knowing many words but not knowing how to use them accurately." lols. i dont know if it has been used by other people before, but heck. sometimes when i hear people use the completely wrong words, i want to cry. they are only making a fool of themselves. (no hard feelings =x) ok whatever
Sports Day today. Well, it was not as bad as i dreaded. I just wish that i could have ran faster and maybe my team could have done better. i feel like i was the one pulling everyone back >.< ughhh.. im so sorry, guys. i know eugene must be damm disappointed with the 10 x 200. it is after all, our last race. no more chances next year.. we'll have graduated already.. hais.. sorry eugene.. furthermore, it was his birthday.. haiz..
my heart is heavy. i dont know what to do. maybe it is because i read Shadow Kiss and the ending is damm sad.. but it made me think about my life, or more specifically, my love life. or rather, my lack of one. i dunno, but it must be good to be in love and be loved in return. or at least that what people always experience in books. in real life, the people around me, when they get in BGRs, the ending is always the same. heartaches and breakups. is it because we are just too young to get into any relationships? like in the books i read, the people live rather interesting lives. as in, they dont really have to worry about school etc. they have their focus in life. besides Shadow Kiss, most of the books are set in fantasy worlds. the characters are not teens. so does that mean that they are old enough to understand the meaning behind relationships? that they understand what it means to truly love someone? hais. some of my friends, they spend their times worrying and pining over jerks who dumped them. seriously.. guys like that should be wiped off the face of the earth. gahhhh maybe i am just too critical. i am too quick to judge. sigh. i dont know. whatever
i find that i am disliking who i am becoming. sometimes i cant stand myself. but it is like as though i am on autopilot at times. the words spill out of my mouth like vomit(quoted from mean girls lol). aka, the dirty jokes etc. i dont know. maybe i am just doing what is expected of me? i feel like i am just hiding behind a mask. that if i were to reveal who i truly am, people wont recognise me. i wish i could do my life over again. there would be so many things i would change. and many people i wouldnt want to have anything to do with. perhaps i would be a much better person right now. ok whatever. i shall try one day to not do anything stupid. make stupid jokes, talk back to mdm ching, talk crap, etc. i should just stick to my books and stay there. they are my haven. hais. ok whatever
okay jackie, get your life back on track. finish your frigging homework!